I never noticed it before but i just did now. I was in an argument with my family and they were all depressed and i got happy. This is unacceptable. I now see myself as some kind of a monster now.
So i looked it up and it happens to people with low self esteem and and mental issues. I my mental issues are treated fairly well but i do have low self esteem and I dont know if can still have the problem even if those things.
I am really scared that i would feel happiness when my father or mother dies. I want to get this treated before that ever happens. If I cant I am seriously considering attempting suicide again because I just cant stand myself and feel the world would be better off without me.
So i looked it up and it happens to people with low self esteem and and mental issues. I my mental issues are treated fairly well but i do have low self esteem and I dont know if can still have the problem even if those things.
I am really scared that i would feel happiness when my father or mother dies. I want to get this treated before that ever happens. If I cant I am seriously considering attempting suicide again because I just cant stand myself and feel the world would be better off without me.
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